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with two different types of connector tips so i can switch to a new controller that allows the bike to regenerate the battery and also drive in reverse. coming in the next few weeks. we’ll see how it goes

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i think about this a lot. what stopped me from becoming a lifelong devout Christian or a cult follower unlike many of the people i grew up with who are still deeply involved with the church?

i’m perplexed and disturbed that many of the friends i grew up with are still brainwashed with religious nonsense and worse, are teaching their children the same sexist, violent, homophobic, paranoid dogma.

a lack of belief in superstition and the supernatural is what stopped me.

i sat down and reasoned it out and came to the conclusion that superstition and the supernatural were beliefs based in illogical fear, and let go of all of those beliefs immediately as soon as it clicked in my mind, many years ago now.

leaving religion is still to this day one of the best, healthiest, more validating and empowering decisions I have ever made in my life. the less i associate with religious people the happier and healthier i am.

this is the way

Bought my very first EEG device a few weeks ago and it finally arrived in the mail yesterday, exciting! Just a simple TGAM kit from Sichiray.

Now I just need to figure out how to use it.

Brainwave Principle

Brain waves can be divided into five categories according to frequency: β wave (conscious 14-30HZ), α wave (bridge consciousness 8-14HZ), θ wave (subconscious 4-8Hz) and δ wave (unconscious below 4Hz) and γ wave ( Focus on something above 30HZ) etc. The combination of these consciousnesses forms a person’s internal and external behavior, emotions, and learning performance. And we can also observe the current state of a person by detecting the frequency of the brain wave signal

https://www.sichiray.com/6

Would probably be easier to buy a Star Wars Force Trainer II or a Muse headset and hack it, or a Neurosky kit, they come with instructions and apps. Will look into these and other options this week.

An instruction manual from Neurosky for Mindset to get you started:

Mindset Instruction Manual

31 pages. I have a lot of reading to do this week.

Also need to catch up on work, have been off sick for a couple of weeks. Next few weeks are going to be busy.

Spring is here. Weather will be gorgeous, forests lush and green soon. This is going to be a good summer, I can feel it.

Still planning to move to the beach, have not wavered on this decision, am looking forward to living next to the ocean again so very much. I’m feeling very good about this decision, feeling very optimistic about life in general.

am going to try convincing the owner of the company i work for to buy a hotel on the west coast with a lil vinyl/comic shop in it so the staff can work in both locations and live the best of both worlds in Quebec and the Pacific Northwest, if he won’t do it then maybe i will. who knows. the future is bright and anything can happen.

to note: added magnesium bisglycinate to my diet last week and it has indeed alleviated quite a bit of depression, anxiety and anger, as well as gastroparesis. i had a migraine this month but no vomiting, i also ate some dairy, tomatoes and potatoes and didn’t vomit either. and this is exceptional. this almost never happens, especially at the peak of my cycle. am also taking zinc and my nails seem stronger.

i’m figuring out what works best for my mind and body, things are improving.

am taking ALCAR. tyrosine. taurine too.

speaking of taurine. i started taking taurine last year and now no longer crave red meat. have stopped eating beef, though i still buy liver for my cats. i believe the taurine is responsible for this. i’m also taking glutamine which may help curb meat cravings too, helps with digestion.

+ taking vitamin C. Q10. two types of vitamin D. i take a bit of cysteine but i don’t like it because it makes me feel spaced out, slow and stupid. won’t be buying any more NAC.

am also taking cod liver oil every day. and oxiracetam every few days. racetams are cognitive enhancers, helps me focus on tasks, study, work and clean my house. don’t like sitting in a chair for more than an hour or two because of this, motivates me to get off my ass and move around every couple of hours. this is great and works well with the standing desk i have in my home office. a standing desk in my office at work would be helpful too, doesn’t feel healthy sitting down in a chair all day at work when i have a standing desk at home. now that i’ve tasted the sweet, sweet standing-desk life i can’t go back to the old-fashioned leg-cramping butt-numbing sit-down-desk life.

hate the feeling of my asscheeks going numb from sitting down for too long. 40 hours per week like this? fuck no.

anyway. i need to get dressed, have breakfast and log in to work.

wishing you all a most excellent week <3

Respect, also called esteem, is a positive feeling or action shown towards someone or something considered important, or held in high esteem or regard. It conveys a sense of admiration for good or valuable qualities. And it is also the process of honoring someone by exhibiting care, concern, or consideration for their needs or feelings.^[1][2]

Some people may earn the respect of individuals by assisting others or by playing important social roles. In many cultures, individuals are considered to be worthy of respect until they prove otherwise. Courtesies that show respect may include simple words and phrases like “Thank you” in the West or “Namaste” in the Indian subcontinent, or simple physical signs like a slight bow, a smile, direct eye contact, or a simple handshake; however, those acts may have very different interpretations, depending on the cultural context.

it’s spring on vancouver island

trees are budding and bursting with new lifez

holding on to this thought like my life depends on it

I’m trying to figure out how to test my home and garden for heavy metals and other elements without sending samples to a lab. Outside labs are costly and time consuming and I like to see the result myself with my own two eyes. There are very few devices on the market affordable for the average person. The device used by the Ville de Montreal to test our tap water was the Paltintest SA1100 which can be found used for about $800 CAD on eBay or somewhere between $1500 CAD and $2500 CAD brand new.

Our tap water measured 27 ppm lead (pb). Which is high enough to cause health complications in children and people with compromised immune systems. In other words, half the population. Let’s be real. How many Montrealers are in peak physical health?

Now I’m reading that cadmium and copper also pose a health risk. So do mercury, arsenic, aluminum, thallium, and uranium. We are only just starting to understand this now that we have instruments that can measure the mass of small particles, so all of this is relatively new to us. Nothing to freak out about, necessarily, so much as learn as much as I can and put measures in place to address the problem.

And so I’m curious how mass spectrometers work, and whether I can build one myself. There are a lot of things I’d like to build and experiment with, but growth and creativity will continue to be stunted so long as I’m living in a toxic home, with a toxic slumlord to boot. Which brings me back to finding a new home to live in.

The next step in my life hinges on me moving out of this nasty ass apartment. Weather will be nice soon, within the next 3-4 months. Just have to endure the next few months, find a nice clean place to live, and then get started building, and creating and singing again (can’t even sing in this place, don’t get me started… there’s no point complaining anymore, now is the time of action).

Going to build me a nice modern laboratory-cum-artist-studio.

Gonna buy me a cabin on the beach with a few acres of land to hide, in a town with likeminded folk.

Warmer winters. Kinder people. Better health care. The pursuit of art and love and knowledge.

ça s’en vient

had a dream last night that i grabbed a last minute flight to Los Angeles and as friends were giving me a tour of the city we crossed a long arched Medieval looking bridge made of glittering silver marred with pockets of black tarnish. a heavy metal bridge like something out of the mind of Antoni Gaudi. surrounded by egg blue pools and fountains. palm trees and topiary. an amusement park. roller coasters. a public transit subway system through water. crowds upon crowds of people.

i can still see it clear in my mind, two hours after waking.

i’ve got heavy metal and ocean coast on my mind.

vivid! i love it

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(the IRONy, Los Angeles also has issues with lead soil/water poisoning)

True, This! —
Beneath the rule of men entirely great
The pen is mightier than the sword. Behold
The arch-enchanters wand! — itself is nothing! —
But taking sorcery from the master-hand
To paralyse the Cæsars, and to strike
The loud earth breathless! — Take away the sword —

States can be saved without it!

i have come to the understanding that i have a wee more information than the average bear and i should learn to keep it under wraps rather than blather out to the world at large about it.

Notice there has not been one single campaign to test children in ANY major city (or small city) in Canada for lead poisoning?

Nor campaigns to test adults, pregnant women or people with compromised immune systems.

Easy to claim there have been no reported cases of lead poisoning in Montreal when you simply do not test for it, and deny patients the right to test for heavy metal poisoning by downplaying the problem, or outright refusing to test for it. Local hospitals also do the same with tuberculosis, they refuse to test for it because then they would be required to report it to authorities and quarantine the patient.

Our own health care system cannot be trusted to act in our best interest, they will mislead the public in order to save money and protect authorities from class action lawsuits, they are part of the problem.

It has been like this all of my life, I’m no longer surprised, this is the way it is with industries and municipal infrastructure managed by Boomers who slash and burn everything in their path to cover their asses instead of INNOVATING to find solutions.