thank you for your patience ❤️
Islands in the stream, that is what we are

beautiful weather
but there is nowhere beautiful to go
within a two hour driving radius around the island of Montreal there are a handful of low mountain peaks, lakes and freshwater beaches but the water quality is questionable. coliform, runoff.
the Saguenay fjord is beautiful but is a full day drive from here, two days lost just driving each way. much too far from Montreal for a weekend trip.
Vancouver has coastal beaches, lakes and some hot springs within a 2-hour radius. This is more important to me now.
I love Montreal’s architecture and French culture, it’s cheaper than Vancouver so artists can survive more easily, thus a high proportion of artists with time to burn and experiment. But I’m an artist, music and art will be with me no matter where I go… planting little seeds of art and music like a littlest hobo. like nomads do. So… no need to stay here anymore.
I feel trapped and repressed and claustrophobic in Quebec. No longer fun or inspiring.
Too many artists, not enough athletes, people who love healthy living.
Too much partying, not enough BUILDING.
I’m reminded of Hackworth and Miranda joining the Drummers in Diamond Age, getting lost in a haze for many years, like Dorothy falling into a dangerous trance in poppy fields preventing her from saving herself and moving on to the next chapter of her life.
Onto new adventures.
this is how I feel about my lost years in Montreal.
what have I even accomplished here with my life?

so very happy I’m finally moving back to the west coast
I’m already planning all the gardens I’m going to plant in my mind…

😏

at 25:00 is an excellent bit on weaving and 8-bit textiles
blood and oil

good

Neal Stephenson’s Diamond Age brought me here
Atomically precise machinery, people really have no idea what’s coming
If we have atomically precise machinery, we will likely also have atomically precise medicine.
And, atomically precise architecture.
Astonishing molecular machines: Drew Berry at TEDxSydney
molecular motors are amazing
i mean. look how beautiful this is

what is the opposite of a joykiller?
joycreator joybirther joygiver
joywarrior
joydeliverer
joymaker
I dunno, man, but I need more of it, and need to be more of a creator of it myself, cuz…
🥹

Lasso of Truth

why I love hyenas, the feline of canine interlopers

mood

the woman I was, the woman I am now, and the woman I want to become
the three people inside us all
the energy I’m bringing into 2024
boatss
